Walk On Through the Rain

Okay - so this is one of my "serious" posts.  The one where you don't get any laughs.  Today marks an anniversary - its one I don't wish to celebrate. One year ago, my mum, aged 54, discovered that the excruciating back pain she had been experiencing for about 10 weeks was not a pinched nerve or slipped disc.  It was actually a number of metastatic tumours in her lower spine.  She was diagnosed with lung cancer which unfortunately had spread to a number of sites in her body, but mostly painfully her spine. I suspect she knew for a long time that she wasn't well.  But, mum had clinical depression, a little agrophobia and an extreme dislike for medical procedures.  She hated to be poked and prodded and didn't particularly like baring her body or soul to any doctor.  I think she put her tiredness and general feeling of being unwell down to her depression.  She was a lifelong drinker and smoker and didn't like to discuss this with doctors.  S...

I am 38.  I am a mother of a teenager and two nearly teenagers.  I am a wife of 18 years.  I am a daughter, a sister, a cousin, a workmate, a neighbour and a friend.  I would like to say I am no-one's enemy.  However, with my potty mouth and penchant for poo humour, perhaps I have made an enemy out of the odd, zero-sense of humour type, along the way.  I love to eat, I love to talk, I love to laugh.  I don't pray, but I admire those who do. Right enough with the serious.  The above paragraph describes me somewhat.  Here's the rest (yes its a little self-deprecating - but its a character flaw of mine!!).  I am chubby, only 2 inches taller than the legal height of a dwarf, I have hairy big toes (just like a hobbit) that I keep at bay with my trusty razor.  I (regularly) overuse exclamation marks, en-dashes and bracketing in my writing - and make no excuses for it!!!  I constantly correct people's grammar (in my head and also di...

I love to write.  It gives me an outlet for my feelings that is composed and carefully put - as opposed to ill-thought and blurted.  It helps me to order my thoughts and express my feelings in a way that is honest and relatable. I also love to make people laugh.  If I can put a smile on someone's face, then that serves to brighten my day - and somehow, putting a funny spin on even the worst of times, is what has helped me survive the storm (s). I want this blog to help me in my journey to becoming a healthier, happier person.  I want it to be a diary of sorts that I can look back on and remember.  I want it to touch you and to show you that you are not alone, that everyone has a battle to fight and no matter how tough things get, you can do it.  I want this blog to make you smile as well as make you frown - because that is life.  An ever changing collection of smiles and frowns, laughter and tears. I hope to help you while I help myself walk on t...